Sunday, January 30, 2011


It starts with your thought...
I will concentrate on only the highest ...
Concentrate on manifesting peace for all...
Excluding FEAR...
False Evidence Appearing Real...

Matter is the evolution of energy. First there is thought, then there is thought form, and then there is matter. Matter is only thought that has been thought upon by more.

--- Abraham

Thursday, January 27, 2011

What did it mean that I knew you?

We meet in dreams...
You,  the super hero then I take a turn...
I would love to ask you, "Am I doing OK?"
But it was never like that, right?
The moments we were engaged I know that we exchanged encoded vibration.
When we entertain the same space in is alway beautiful.
I will eternally miss you; as did I for the 20 years prior to your death.
The lessons are invaluable.


Tuesday, January 25, 2011

Collect and Direct.

As soon as I lock something into a set pattern the elements of myself tend to challenge that path.
Is it a cognitive groove I need to rework?
You are what you think.
Kindness to the self is also a component.
I will try again tomorrow and carry none of the guilt with me today....

Learning to let go, forgive, and the Now;  which is all we have.

The reading that resonates with me the hardest today was a post on;
discussing how you must first collect and then direct.

I need to harness my inner child and apply the some advice that could be directed and useful to my physical child.

Patience with the self and the process.
You knew utter self love when you is the time to reclaim it.

let go and let the universe.

Monday, January 24, 2011

What an honor

Do not dwell in the past, do not dream of the future,

concentrate the mind on the present moment.

- The Buddha

Sunday, January 23, 2011


Finding myself needing some space...
The opportunity consistently arrives at 5 fuckin 30 in the morning....

I lye contemplating the need to seek the guidance of my spirit today, Really?

Chakra's open and the light pours in and YES it is time...

I am up there H2O, elliptical trainer, and yoga mat. ready.
Sweat, questions of sanity, strenghting muscles, stretching, breathing, lengthening, pushing, pulling and Shavasana

I am More Alive then before!

Thank you 5:30 for existing in a house of movement directed my Chairman Mou upon his awaking until his retiring...

A lil' shout out to my inspiration this morning!


Saturday, January 22, 2011

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Love is all around...
We are together;
 all 3 of us for some time anyways!
It is a blessing to spend time...
The love we share has many faces...
This is one.
We ALWAYS hold it down for one another ALWAYS!
KALI MA style.

Thursday, January 20, 2011

Chukchi lullaby

So fast to figure out the workings of that which I agonize over...
Wondering if you will ....
You always do...
The is time going so fast...

This video was played for you in the late nights/early mornings...
total identification.

Friday, January 14, 2011

150 lbs.

Ok I am 150lbs and I do not care about being at that weight at all.
I weigh myself on the scale in my office at Keenan.
This shall be the scale that I use to not be fooled by others I step upon.
I will be 135-140...

I will do this by increasing h2o comsumption, eating more vegi's, eating fruit when I have a sweet craving, limit self to 1 sweet thing per day only, work out 4 x weekly for 1 hour.

One of the patients I work with I haven't seen in about 1 year came to the clinic and said, oh girl, you gettin fat!" I don't like that.

This will change.

Water Tip:

On feeling hungry
drink some water
15 minutes before

Health benefits of drinking water
  • regulate appetite
  • increase metabolism
  • boost energy levels
  • less water retention
  • alleviate some headaches
  • help reduce blood pressure
  • help reduce high cholesterol
  • ease joint pain
  • decrease in risk of some cancers
  • less chance developing kidney stones
  • release toxic waste products
  • improves skin

Thursday, January 13, 2011


this Man continues to teach me all about the flow...
i will forever be thankful...
i love you.

"Do not worry that your children never listen to you, worry that they are always watching you-Robert Fulgum

today I will make time to listen to music with Emery and paint.
We will have a quick nutritious meal and play! Hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
I found a great tutorial on Little Wonders blog on how to make paint!

Thank you to all the inspiring people in the world doing it!

Tuesday, January 4, 2011


I have already broke my new year resolutions and it is only 1/4/11...
I must be willing to continue to strive for the better feeling place.
I must remember that I will never while still alive in this  physical body, Transcend.

Would I want that anyways?

Never being able to hug my son, husband, mother, sisters, or friends....

I have this idea that if I hold myself to certain stringent law I will be able to push through the time and space I currently hold...
(is there anything wrong with it??? [the space I hold] I wish I could step out and observewhat others see)

Most of the shadows of this life are caused by our standing in our own sunshine.

Ralph Waldo Emerson