It has been a really long time since I have been on here...lol
I have been doing sooo much since I have been MIA. Mothering, felting (which is a new one), working with ladies, and learning so much.

I am about to start utilizing this space more for a venting location, both positive and negative... (hopefully more + tho)

Peace to all

Transition

Transitions occur though out life, I tend to stumble.
Excited at the discovery, nervous as it beckons.
Stepping up to engage with deep breath, I progress...

Taking complete responsibility for how I feel.

Stopping the victim role of blaming others for making me feel a certain way...
I am in control of me.

I will watch due to old programming how I want to blame outer circumstances for my feeling , at that point regain control.

Baby steps.....

1/26/12

Wow...
It has been 6 months since I have posted...
I am exercising 3 x weekly,
I have stopped smoking cigarettes,
I have started drinking green smoothies again,
I have turned my monkey mind over to the process of analysis as far as it comes to my responsibilities in my life and thus co-creation of my physical world.
There are times in my life when I clearly remember having beef with any and all that have carried a close relationship with me.
Looking back now I can see the problem is something with myself...
Pinpointing the exact issue is cloudy at this point.
I am listening to a program on http://www.pathwaytohappiness.com, very interesting insight this dude has...
Seems to be Buddhist with a core space of ultimate love as the essence.
The man who run the site is named Gary, who states that the earliest memory one has holds a significant part place marker of  where deep issues began, remembering the bad things stick (I will research more about this concept)...
I can remember sitting around a fire on my grandparents land and my father being there... I was dancing and twirling around as sparks from the fire lite and crackled in exact rhythm of my dance that streamed from my heart...
ooh I loved my father and that night her looked at me and said to everyone,"look at my beautiful movie star"...
I felt like the most special being in the universe...
we were connected and we both mirrored pure ultimate love for each other...
I must have been 4-5 years old.
My father started to separate from our family shortly after that time and completely severed all ties by the time I was 11 years old.
Entering a space of being a preteen and then a teen I told my self that I was not good enough to keep my Father around...
at least have him take me with where ever her was...
We was my first love.

Who completely and utterly shattered my heart into a million pieces.

Now to start from there...
Thanks for the insight and verbiage to begin this process Gary van Warmerdam.

I am in charge ...OF ME !!!

not sure if I ever knew that...

always reactive, waiting not appreciating.

I love the creation and co-creation process of my life.

slowing connecting to the support web of all.

I am greatful to be EXACTLY were I am at.

Thanks to everyone last of everybody!

namaste!

Emery thinks this looks like me!
I am honored!

To Sweet Emery

"Because I love you so much...


I'm just... amazed! I never knew I had so

much love in my heart... I feel so blessed...

I'm so happy that you're in my life... I just

want to savor this moment . . . . I want to

burn it in my memory... I want to remember

it whenever I feel disconnected from you,

because this Love is so powerful that there's

no hurt it can't heal! Even if I sometimes

forget, this Love will always be here...

Right here in my heart...



I will always, *always* love you!"

copied from:

http://www.enjoyparenting.com/dailygroove

Noble Mother

Raising Boys 11/19/2009 - nobleMother Internet Radio Blog Talk Radio

I Love This!

Fever

Lil E has a fever that came on suddenly,
I tend to wait for the body to break the fever Au natural...

When 104 approaches and is surpassed,
Tylenol or ibuprofen = 1/2 tsp. is used.
There is a belief that

 "Fever, according to the anthroposophic midwife, can often benefit the child. She says:

Fever also helps a child to become more of an individual. Parents often report that their child’s development has taken a marked step forward after a bout of fever: he or she may have grown a few centimetres or changed their way of drawing or painting, with the figures now having hair or limbs. Suddenly the child is seeing the world with new eyes."
http://zooey.wordpress.com/





Researching natural remedies.
Namaste.

  The transcending thought sticks long enough

 and then I am on to the next ....

 Confetti,

 just about the time it settles ...

 the flurry starts again.

How long  has this been occurring,

perhaps for lifetimes?

I see it and LOVE it.

I must.

It is part of what it means to be embodied in this continuum

and the cycle continues.

Blessing to you all,

and the new cycle.

peace.

Wow!

What an honor to win a lesson plan from

www.littleacronlearning.blogspot.com

I feel full of joy!

 I need this and will use the lift to ascend in this deep February afternoon!

The best time...
The best space...
The best people...

The best Now,
Always!

I Love these guys,
Glad we meet up this time around and get to spend some time...

Awsome info on Anthroposophy!

http://www.littleacornlearning.com/Anthroposophy101.html




"Love grows by giving. The love we give away is the only love we keep. The only way to retain love is to give it away." ~Elbert Hubbard

i (heart) Chai

Today’s Nourishing Tip – Homemade Chai

What is Right Now.

I feel very often, that I need a change...
I do it with my diet, my music, my book selection, and my mental chatter...
In this space I depreciate my current situation and dream of what will be...
I am Living and breathing NOW...
I am living the NOW...
I need to appreciate the NOW..

I will honor the NOW!

"The reason you want every single thing that you want, is because you think you will feel really good when you get there. But, if you don't feel really good on your way to there, you can't get there. You have to be satisfied with what-is while you're reaching for more. " ~ Abraham

Upcycled/Recycled T~Shirt Tutorial #2: Underwear

This is Awesome!
Especially now that TRex is wearing underwear!

The Sitting Tree: Upcycled/Recycled T~Shirt Tutorial #2: Underwear: "I don't know if you've ever noticed but in most of the pictures of my boys, they aren't wearing anything but their underwear. Mike and..."

Attain

It starts with your thought...
I will concentrate on only the highest ...
Concentrate on manifesting peace for all...
Excluding FEAR...
False Evidence Appearing Real...



Matter is the evolution of energy. First there is thought, then there is thought form, and then there is matter. Matter is only thought that has been thought upon by more.




--- Abraham

What did it mean that I knew you?

We meet in dreams...

You,  the super hero then I take a turn...

I would love to ask you, "Am I doing OK?"

But it was never like that, right?

The moments we were engaged I know that we exchanged encoded vibration.

When we entertain the same space in is alway beautiful.
I will eternally miss you; as did I for the 20 years prior to your death.

The lessons are invaluable.

Namaste.

Collect and Direct.

As soon as I lock something into a set pattern the elements of myself tend to challenge that path.

Is it a cognitive groove I need to rework?

You are what you think.

Kindness to the self is also a component.

I will try again tomorrow and carry none of the guilt with me today....

Learning to let go, forgive, and the Now;  which is all we have.

The reading that resonates with me the hardest today was a post on http://blog.essentialparenting.com/;

discussing how you must first collect and then direct.

I need to harness my inner child and apply the some advice that could be directed and useful to my physical child.

Patience with the self and the process.

You knew utter self love when you arrived...now is the time to reclaim it.

let go and let the universe.
Namaste.

What an honor

Do not dwell in the past, do not dream of the future,

concentrate the mind on the present moment.

- The Buddha